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Hey, it's just curiousity and a research as well.
Actually I'm not sure about mine it just ended without me confessing in the same day it started.

Recently, I've been thinking that maybe I'm bi. I'm a girl and my first kiss was a girl. I wouldn't mind fucking my girl bestfriend but not because I'm in love with her but just for the heck of it. I'm rather horny. But other than that, I'm as normal as hetero. Does that fact that I won't mind fucking some girls I know make me bi?

Question to fellow gays and lesbians here:
How do you decide you are homosexual? Is it like the way they show in manga?

yeah l really don't like yaoi mangw if they don't have a romantic s~x (︶︿︶)＝凸 you l like it smut ლ(´ڡ`ლ)

I was diagnosed with BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) since college, and I have abandonment issues. I don't believe in marriage but sometimes I believe my dream is to have a nice family, I love my fiancee but being attached to one man scares me. What if I'm a terrible wife, what if I don't love him. Things can go from hate to love to hate for me with him. Sex is more of a chore for me than joy but I was assaulted when I was young so that may be a factor. My wedding is around 6 months from now and to this day I still don't know if I love him or is he just the easy way, so I don't have to be alone.

How can you tell when you're in love?

No shame over here, I ship 4 boys in my school and I scream out loud when they touch or sit on top of each other. They know skinship kills me so they tease me a lot.

Coming back to Manga after a long hiatus and I've been reading so many yaoi manga, many of which are long with smut. When I try to find guy/girl romance mangas they seem to go no further than a kiss, it might be because I'm looking more at shoujos. So what I've looking for is long, fulfilling smutty shoujo or maybe even josei mangas.

Points if it they contain one or more of the following (but non are necessary):
Fantasy
Forced Relationship/Closeness
Kidnapping
Guys with Long Hair
Costume Porn
Beautiful art
Possessiveness
Protectiveness
Strong Female Character

Thank you!

^_^ l'm normal girl have a normal life . read yaoi manga (≧∀≦) . I adore every Handsome boy ヾ(☆▽☆) l love pretty boys (づ￣ ³￣)づ . and university student . l love my life (▰˘◡˘▰) it pretty normal and cuteee .
and you ( ^ _ ^ ) ????

Surely we all fantasise once in awhile while reading our yaoi mangos <3 Of all the fantasises that you've had, what is your most ideal?


For my case, I imagine that i am a male, only likes guys but is afraid to hang out wth them so i'm mostly with my girl-friends. My seme type is the overprotective strong silent types like Ayumi (Fushidara na Hanatsumi Otoko) or Aikawa (Mujihi Na Anata; Warui Series). Did i mention that having a strong sexual thirst is good too ? ლ(´ڡ`ლ)

My yaoi life as i fantasise, is that I would meet my seme through mutual friends, likely from work. My tipsy nervousness being next to my crush would get his attention and he would try to open up to calm me down. I am not always a nervous wreck, just that with someone I like, I tend to be a bit more jumpy. I would love how he makes the effort, and would occasionally fawn over it subtly. He would know that i am gay, but wouldn't mind much of my PDA. we are just friend after all. After awhile, I would gather up my courage to confess my feelings for him one day. He would take it with slight indifference and hesitation at first, maybe even avoiding me to gather his thoughts. Once or twice, he might deny knowing me in front of his friends. Which would upset me entirely.

I would pour myself entirely into work. We work in the same company but in different departments. Hence I would make the effort to avoid any confrontation with him. He would try to approach me several time but unconsciously i would avoid him. (Him) One step forward, (mine) two steps back. Until one day when he has had enough and corners me, asking for forgiveness (albeit in the more action-first, talk-later manner). I would happily become his lover, but never dare to make much PDA as before as the emotional trauma would be still fresh.

Love kind of scares me.

Or rather I guess love is a scary thing in general, but I find myself exaggeratedly scared by it.

I've always been that 'tough' girl who's not interested in falling in love. Truth is, now that I'm growing up, I'm starting to realize I'm simply fucking scared of it (but I'm also hopelessly romantic lol).

When I was growing up, I used to think I would never fall in love because for me, being in love meant being weak and/or vulnerable. Because you had to rely on another person and had to show them your weak side, I hated the idea. I was always quick to dismiss any attraction I felt for anybody, and didn't put too much thought into it. I fell in love once and it took all my efforts hiding and denying it it remains a painful and unnecessary memory (plus it kind of faded over time so it makes it even more annoying now that only the discomfort remains).

I also have a big ego and at the same time a poor self- esteem. For a long time I refused to tell myself I needed others and at the same time I always kind of thought it was because I was unable to blend in (I was a hung up kid). I developed some kind of inferioriy/superiority complex as a coping mechanism I guess lol
Plus, I've always been kind of a perfectionist, so my standards for myself and people, and therefore love, have always been ridiculously high. I've always been conscious and afraid of how people would look at me, and one of my biggest fear is deceiving people. I think my current behaviour really reflects that because I love putting extra care in what I'm wearing/how I'm behaving in the surface etc. because I want people to look up to me, but above all because I want to be the intimidating kind of beautiful lol (yeah I'm kind of vain so what :'). But I don't fucking do it because I want people to approach me and flirt with me. I just love to be imposing lol (well I'm trying to at least)

But also, my personality is kind of weird: I'm either really fake and reserved, or overly sharing my thoughts, and I jump from one extreme to another. I become so frank and ridiculously extra (thus awkward) it feels like I'm either not honest enough to trust people and for people to trust me into a deeper relationship (be it friendship or more), or too honest and nobody is interested in listening to me because I'm so exhausting and uninteresting lmao. It's like I'm just a personality, a figure (my english skills are not good enough I don't know if it's the right term), like I'm entertaining but I'm not really taken seriously. And at the same time it's what I want people to think because I'm afraid to show my real self to others, thus the fear of commitment etc.
In short, I'm pretty egocentric yet self-deprecative, which isn't super attractive lmao.

Same goes for love, I noticed whan I feel some kind of attraction to someone it's like I'm in a push and pull relationship. One time I'm laughing and playing dumb because it's hard to hide my affection towards them, and then the next minute I'm finding myself quite literally hating on them, or jokingly making fun of them and playing tough because they make me feel like shit and I have no other way to distance myself from them than making myself look toughly "friendly" and kind of rude (still in a friendly sort of way but not really)

So this led me to avoid commitment in any way possible. I'm afraid of getting bored of the other person and vice versa, I'm afraid I'm not worthy/mature enough, I'm afraid love will make me vulnerable etc.

And at the same time, I've been coping with my sexual needs and romantic aspiration by """"projecting"""" (this isn't the right term but english isn't my first language so I'm doing what I can, I think you get the idea?) other people I can and can't relate to: I'm invested in stanning kpop celebs bc I can give them all the ungiven affection I hold (not in a weird sexual way, don't get my wrong lmao). It's super platonic and one- sided because I'm aware they're not even aware of my existence, but I like having people I admire like this. It's like I can freely give love without getting burdened by any expectations in return. Also (it's a whole different topic and I could go on for hours but it's getting long and boring so no), I like reading BL manga and fanfiction because in a way, I can relate to the characters feelings without actuelly projecting myself (reading shoujou manga/straight romance makes me gag). I'm not in any way fetichzing anyone's sexuality (and i'm saying this as an LGBT person) and I don't get off on it for god's sake, but it helps me relate with the feelings without completely making me involved in the characters, and it's reassuring.

Plus, I've been in a harsh situation lately and when my friends are away from me enjoying themselves, falling in love and having fun, doing things young people do, I'm just here laying in my bed, feeling rejected and alone, unable to get up due to personal/mental issues so it makes me even more miserable and ashamed of myself for feeling and behaving like that.
And as I'm typing this, a friend of mine (who I suspect is trying to ask me out) wants to see me and I can't say him I don't want to (bc fear of saying no, deceiving people etc.) and he's a friend I don't want to lose... But how can I explain him all this shit lol

So I'm here, already 18 yo and still romantically/sexually inexperienced, terrified of love and commitment, putting on acts and feeling miserable, not knowing how to politely decline someone and just lost in my own mess of a life lmao

(In the end it turned out to be a long and disjointed rambling I'm sorry)


What about you? Can you relate?

Is love unappealing to you?

I do! (づ￣ ³￣)づ I mostly post them on Instagram, the filters make things look even better, don't they? Lol, but I still suck at shading, so I reaaalllyy have to improve on that (if you have tips for me, that would be greatly appreciated!). Also if you do post them online, I'd love to see some!
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Hello! Im looking for a penpal learning japanese, because Im learning japanese but Im in a love/hate relationship with it ^^', like somedays I wake up and think "oh I love japanese, so rich, so complicated but awesome" and somedays i wake up and think "why am I doing this to myself? Dx" so yeah I would like someone who is currently learning japanese (or wants to learn japanese) and would like to suffer with me lol, jk I feel like maybe learning with someone else will give me motivation in the days I feel like giving up.
Also i know english and spanish so if you are learning japanese and speak those languages or know japanese and want to learn english and/or spanish then we could help each other (=・ω・=)

I was introduced to yaoi by my daughter in my late 40's. Fell in love with it after watching Junjou Romantica. I'm 52 now and just wondering how many other "mature" yaoi lovers there are here.

So the worst thing may be like something harsh, awful.

The funniest thing may be a moment where it is just funny af!

OR any moment experience you wanna share :)

Hi there fellow mangalovers!I've always wanted to try this penpal thing but haven't really had the chance.Never would have thought i could find some from all around the world on my fav mangasite...lucky me!I guess some personal info is in order sooo i'm 19 ,speak english(obviously),french , a little german which i could have forgotten... don't judge and naturally bulgarian.I could use some polishing of my writing skills in each of them soo this is a pretty good opportunity :D

l don't love in my life any more l'm SUCK OF IT ┗( T﹏T )┛

(づ￣ ³￣)づ ohh god l hop so ⁄(⁄ ⁄·⁄ω⁄·⁄ ⁄)⁄

Heya!
Anyone interested in making new friends? I've always wanted to have a friend from another country! x) If you'd like to just chat about anything (like: movies, (yaoi) mangas, music, books/novels in general, art, idk the weather?) feel free to send me a message. (●'◡'●)ﾉ
I feel like making friends lately has become really hard.. (especially if you're shy and awkward like me (>_<) )

I really want to have friends who have the same hobbies with me (⌒▽⌒) let's be friends minna

Hello! I've heard of penpals before and I always thought they seemed awesome! But quick question, do you have to know (or be learning) another language to have a penpal? Because I speak English and only English, but I've always wanted to learn Japanese. And I thought "what better way then learning by making a friend across the world?". I would extremely prefer someone who's close in age. So if anyone's got an answer or just wants to try it out and see how it goes, I'm all up for it. (This whole Japanese thing would be awesome but I'm willing to try with people that speak a different language.)
Female/16/US
Hobbies: watching anime (very wide variety of genres), reading manga (especially yaoi), music (both listening and playing), playing kingdom hearts, pets.
Btw, I am a very logical thinker, so if you don't like people that are more logical than emotional, you might not like me... Oh and I love having arguments! (Not mean ones, mainly logical) ╮(￣▽￣)╭

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I wish scanlators would cite their images more! I always see really interesting ones.