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I'm a girl •-• but my question is, if I were to do a sex change and become a guy but still want to do it with a guy (okay with being uke or seme) does that mean I'm gay to societies eye e.e and still straight somehow cuz I know I'm not into girls. But if I were, would that still make me a lesbian XD even if I physically appear as a dude to society which would make me straight but deep inside I'm still a girl?

Have you ever experienced being caught while reading a hardcore stuff? Graphical/detailed. Like, you were trying so hard to be discreet but somehow fate hates you so much someone still managed to see what was up your sleeves. If yes, please elaborate! If no, how do u hide ur stuff and urself?

I have this one friend who is depressed and honestly I don't really know what to say whenever she talks to me about it. The best way is to just be a listener but when you're chatting with her it's kind of hard to not give a response, isn't it? Tried telling her she should seek professional help but her mom is kind of traditional and doesn't believe that depression is a mental illness.

She told be that lately she's feeling disconnected to some people but I know for the fact that one of the factors is her exclusive group of friends that are really possessive. I want her to know that she is still very much loved and appreciated, and I want her to kind of 'loosen up' with her exclusive group but I don't know how. Can anyone help me?

1) Ze
2) Ten count
3) Renai Ruby no Tadashii Furikata
4) Kuroneko KareshiAmeiro Paradox
5) Seitokaichou ni Chuukoku
6) ameiro paradox
so what is your favorites manga that you will watch it as anime .
for me ( ten count ) *-* can't wait anymore ε=ε=(ノ≧∇≦)ノ .

My best friend just recently took the board examination for the 2nd time. When he told his family that it was so hard, harder than the 1st one last year, and he thinks he may not make it again, one of his family members told him to just quit it and just look for another job or study another course. I wasn't able to talk to my friend in those months he was studying because he was so focus about it and he worked his ass off so that he'll pass the exam this time but we're talking about board exam. A lot of people know how hard it is and failing is, unfortunately, part of it.

So yeah, he was so depressed when he told me about it and tbh, if I were him, I would probably get angry to that person and might cut him off in my life because what that person did just create such negativity in one's life. But of course, since it's a family member, I couldn't tell that to my friend since he's very loyal to his family, no matter how they keep letting him down.

I don't know why there are some family members who act like this. Family should support each other. What happened to my friend somehow made me realized why a lot of students commit suicide. Why there are people who would rather die instead of seeking help.

If you were in his position, what will you guys do? What good advice should I give to my friend?

I have had feelings for two of my gay friends. The first one 's male and the second is female.
The first:
I've known him since forever. He's actually one of my first friends when I moved to this current location. I've liked him since I was 10 and never told him. I guess that's made me a fool. Even then I must have known that he's not for me. I was more comfortable in the friend zone. I watched him date girls then guys and listened to him as he told me about them. I figured that I still liked him because my heart ached, as he babbled on about this guy and that guy while knowing I would never be the one.
Along the way, once I was in high school, I did date another one of my friends. Things between him and me were not as good as it should have been. I never felt like I had a boyfriend, with him. It felt more like a friendship than dating.
Then came one of my close friend, who is a female like myself. I became friends with her in Senior year of high school. She was like fresh air and the openness of freedom. By the end of Senior year, I fell for her. I think that I loved her since I first laid eyes on her. At the time, I thought I was straight because I was raised in a strict home and I didn't even get a chance to explore. So I didn't allow myself to think about liking the same gender. Being in love with her taught me that it's ok to feel this way towards people even if they are female. Love is love. Even if she and I never got together, she is still one of my close friends. This is my story.
What's yours?

I am a fairly sexual person but recently I have found myself attracted to a person who identifies as ace. Anyone with a similar experience? What is it like dating somebody who is asexual? OK bye!

Well, I want to meet more BNHA fans so I decided to create a discord server for it :)
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want to make friends with other yaoi lovers so i just made a discord recently to create chat rooms please join :)
disclaimer: im not too familiar to discord so we can learn together
https://discord.gg/quGvsk

I met a girl on internet and we started talking on WhatsApp. She was younger than me. I was talking with her bc we shared the same hobbies. We talked for 1 year almost everyday. I liked teasing her and all. But then i became busy and stopped talking with her. And yesterday i met a girl who looks so much like her and when i talk to her my heart is beating bc she reminds me of her.And i find myself thinking about her sometimes.Does that mean I liked her but I didnt realize it? Does that make me bi? Im a girl btw

Hey, it's just curiousity and a research as well.
Actually I'm not sure about mine it just ended without me confessing in the same day it started.

Recently, I've been thinking that maybe I'm bi. I'm a girl and my first kiss was a girl. I wouldn't mind fucking my girl bestfriend but not because I'm in love with her but just for the heck of it. I'm rather horny. But other than that, I'm as normal as hetero. Does that fact that I won't mind fucking some girls I know make me bi?

Question to fellow gays and lesbians here:
How do you decide you are homosexual? Is it like the way they show in manga?

yeah l really don't like yaoi mangw if they don't have a romantic s~x (︶︿︶)＝凸 you l like it smut ლ(´ڡ`ლ)

I was diagnosed with BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) since college, and I have abandonment issues. I don't believe in marriage but sometimes I believe my dream is to have a nice family, I love my fiancee but being attached to one man scares me. What if I'm a terrible wife, what if I don't love him. Things can go from hate to love to hate for me with him. Sex is more of a chore for me than joy but I was assaulted when I was young so that may be a factor. My wedding is around 6 months from now and to this day I still don't know if I love him or is he just the easy way, so I don't have to be alone.

How can you tell when you're in love?

No shame over here, I ship 4 boys in my school and I scream out loud when they touch or sit on top of each other. They know skinship kills me so they tease me a lot.

Coming back to Manga after a long hiatus and I've been reading so many yaoi manga, many of which are long with smut. When I try to find guy/girl romance mangas they seem to go no further than a kiss, it might be because I'm looking more at shoujos. So what I've looking for is long, fulfilling smutty shoujo or maybe even josei mangas.

Points if it they contain one or more of the following (but non are necessary):
Fantasy
Forced Relationship/Closeness
Kidnapping
Guys with Long Hair
Costume Porn
Beautiful art
Possessiveness
Protectiveness
Strong Female Character

Thank you!

^_^ l'm normal girl have a normal life . read yaoi manga (≧∀≦) . I adore every Handsome boy ヾ(☆▽☆) l love pretty boys (づ￣ ³￣)づ . and university student . l love my life (▰˘◡˘▰) it pretty normal and cuteee .
and you ( ^ _ ^ ) ????

Surely we all fantasise once in awhile while reading our yaoi mangos <3 Of all the fantasises that you've had, what is your most ideal?


For my case, I imagine that i am a male, only likes guys but is afraid to hang out wth them so i'm mostly with my girl-friends. My seme type is the overprotective strong silent types like Ayumi (Fushidara na Hanatsumi Otoko) or Aikawa (Mujihi Na Anata; Warui Series). Did i mention that having a strong sexual thirst is good too ? ლ(´ڡ`ლ)

My yaoi life as i fantasise, is that I would meet my seme through mutual friends, likely from work. My tipsy nervousness being next to my crush would get his attention and he would try to open up to calm me down. I am not always a nervous wreck, just that with someone I like, I tend to be a bit more jumpy. I would love how he makes the effort, and would occasionally fawn over it subtly. He would know that i am gay, but wouldn't mind much of my PDA. we are just friend after all. After awhile, I would gather up my courage to confess my feelings for him one day. He would take it with slight indifference and hesitation at first, maybe even avoiding me to gather his thoughts. Once or twice, he might deny knowing me in front of his friends. Which would upset me entirely.

I would pour myself entirely into work. We work in the same company but in different departments. Hence I would make the effort to avoid any confrontation with him. He would try to approach me several time but unconsciously i would avoid him. (Him) One step forward, (mine) two steps back. Until one day when he has had enough and corners me, asking for forgiveness (albeit in the more action-first, talk-later manner). I would happily become his lover, but never dare to make much PDA as before as the emotional trauma would be still fresh.

Love kind of scares me.

Or rather I guess love is a scary thing in general, but I find myself exaggeratedly scared by it.

I've always been that 'tough' girl who's not interested in falling in love. Truth is, now that I'm growing up, I'm starting to realize I'm simply fucking scared of it (but I'm also hopelessly romantic lol).

When I was growing up, I used to think I would never fall in love because for me, being in love meant being weak and/or vulnerable. Because you had to rely on another person and had to show them your weak side, I hated the idea. I was always quick to dismiss any attraction I felt for anybody, and didn't put too much thought into it. I fell in love once and it took all my efforts hiding and denying it it remains a painful and unnecessary memory (plus it kind of faded over time so it makes it even more annoying now that only the discomfort remains).

I also have a big ego and at the same time a poor self- esteem. For a long time I refused to tell myself I needed others and at the same time I always kind of thought it was because I was unable to blend in (I was a hung up kid). I developed some kind of inferioriy/superiority complex as a coping mechanism I guess lol
Plus, I've always been kind of a perfectionist, so my standards for myself and people, and therefore love, have always been ridiculously high. I've always been conscious and afraid of how people would look at me, and one of my biggest fear is deceiving people. I think my current behaviour really reflects that because I love putting extra care in what I'm wearing/how I'm behaving in the surface etc. because I want people to look up to me, but above all because I want to be the intimidating kind of beautiful lol (yeah I'm kind of vain so what :'). But I don't fucking do it because I want people to approach me and flirt with me. I just love to be imposing lol (well I'm trying to at least)

But also, my personality is kind of weird: I'm either really fake and reserved, or overly sharing my thoughts, and I jump from one extreme to another. I become so frank and ridiculously extra (thus awkward) it feels like I'm either not honest enough to trust people and for people to trust me into a deeper relationship (be it friendship or more), or too honest and nobody is interested in listening to me because I'm so exhausting and uninteresting lmao. It's like I'm just a personality, a figure (my english skills are not good enough I don't know if it's the right term), like I'm entertaining but I'm not really taken seriously. And at the same time it's what I want people to think because I'm afraid to show my real self to others, thus the fear of commitment etc.
In short, I'm pretty egocentric yet self-deprecative, which isn't super attractive lmao.

Same goes for love, I noticed whan I feel some kind of attraction to someone it's like I'm in a push and pull relationship. One time I'm laughing and playing dumb because it's hard to hide my affection towards them, and then the next minute I'm finding myself quite literally hating on them, or jokingly making fun of them and playing tough because they make me feel like shit and I have no other way to distance myself from them than making myself look toughly "friendly" and kind of rude (still in a friendly sort of way but not really)

So this led me to avoid commitment in any way possible. I'm afraid of getting bored of the other person and vice versa, I'm afraid I'm not worthy/mature enough, I'm afraid love will make me vulnerable etc.

And at the same time, I've been coping with my sexual needs and romantic aspiration by """"projecting"""" (this isn't the right term but english isn't my first language so I'm doing what I can, I think you get the idea?) other people I can and can't relate to: I'm invested in stanning kpop celebs bc I can give them all the ungiven affection I hold (not in a weird sexual way, don't get my wrong lmao). It's super platonic and one- sided because I'm aware they're not even aware of my existence, but I like having people I admire like this. It's like I can freely give love without getting burdened by any expectations in return. Also (it's a whole different topic and I could go on for hours but it's getting long and boring so no), I like reading BL manga and fanfiction because in a way, I can relate to the characters feelings without actuelly projecting myself (reading shoujou manga/straight romance makes me gag). I'm not in any way fetichzing anyone's sexuality (and i'm saying this as an LGBT person) and I don't get off on it for god's sake, but it helps me relate with the feelings without completely making me involved in the characters, and it's reassuring.

Plus, I've been in a harsh situation lately and when my friends are away from me enjoying themselves, falling in love and having fun, doing things young people do, I'm just here laying in my bed, feeling rejected and alone, unable to get up due to personal/mental issues so it makes me even more miserable and ashamed of myself for feeling and behaving like that.
And as I'm typing this, a friend of mine (who I suspect is trying to ask me out) wants to see me and I can't say him I don't want to (bc fear of saying no, deceiving people etc.) and he's a friend I don't want to lose... But how can I explain him all this shit lol

So I'm here, already 18 yo and still romantically/sexually inexperienced, terrified of love and commitment, putting on acts and feeling miserable, not knowing how to politely decline someone and just lost in my own mess of a life lmao

(In the end it turned out to be a long and disjointed rambling I'm sorry)


What about you? Can you relate?

Is love unappealing to you?

I do! (づ￣ ³￣)づ I mostly post them on Instagram, the filters make things look even better, don't they? Lol, but I still suck at shading, so I reaaalllyy have to improve on that (if you have tips for me, that would be greatly appreciated!). Also if you do post them online, I'd love to see some!
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